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Sep. 29th, 2012 08:42 am»sighs«
I really need to write here more often. I enjoy LiveJournal so much more than Facebook, but end up on FB more. I should do something like Seph does, and write at least weekly.
Anyway, not unexpectedly, Panta has passed on to the Rainbow Bridge, into the arms of Lady Bast. That is him in the icon, the reason I chose this one (because I am NOT happy like in the pic..). He has ben part of my life for 19 years, and I'm not sure what I am going to do without him. I say not unexpectedly because he has been showing his age, especially over the past couple of months.
I'm trying not to doubleguess myself. Yes, I should have taken him to vet more regularly, but I should go to the human-vet more too. I've even got insurance to cover my visits, unlike for Panta.
Panta has been slowing down over the past year or so, being more careful. This past week … I'm sorry Panta. if I had taken you in to a vet, would you still be with us?
When I got home yesterday, he was laying on the base of a scratching pole, not one of his normal places. He was breathing, but not moving much. I basically sat with him for about 4 hours. periodically crying when it seemed he had slipped away, only to have him move again. About 10PM, I was exhausted, and went to bed. He was still breathing, but more of a gasp occasionally. Woke up about 2AM for bathroom, and he was stiff. My hope is that he was not feeling pain. My fear is that he was in pain that I could have avoided.
I have recited the Going Westward to the Sunrise songe (from Always Coming Home ) and prayed to Lady Bast. I thought I was almost cried out, but I feel some more.
I miss you Panta.
Thank you Seph, for the support last night.
I really need to write here more often. I enjoy LiveJournal so much more than Facebook, but end up on FB more. I should do something like Seph does, and write at least weekly.
Anyway, not unexpectedly, Panta has passed on to the Rainbow Bridge, into the arms of Lady Bast. That is him in the icon, the reason I chose this one (because I am NOT happy like in the pic..). He has ben part of my life for 19 years, and I'm not sure what I am going to do without him. I say not unexpectedly because he has been showing his age, especially over the past couple of months.
I'm trying not to doubleguess myself. Yes, I should have taken him to vet more regularly, but I should go to the human-vet more too. I've even got insurance to cover my visits, unlike for Panta.
Panta has been slowing down over the past year or so, being more careful. This past week … I'm sorry Panta. if I had taken you in to a vet, would you still be with us?
When I got home yesterday, he was laying on the base of a scratching pole, not one of his normal places. He was breathing, but not moving much. I basically sat with him for about 4 hours. periodically crying when it seemed he had slipped away, only to have him move again. About 10PM, I was exhausted, and went to bed. He was still breathing, but more of a gasp occasionally. Woke up about 2AM for bathroom, and he was stiff. My hope is that he was not feeling pain. My fear is that he was in pain that I could have avoided.
I have recited the Going Westward to the Sunrise songe (from Always Coming Home ) and prayed to Lady Bast. I thought I was almost cried out, but I feel some more.
I miss you Panta.
Thank you Seph, for the support last night.
